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Sooooo........ I flew into Newark on Friday night,(3/16) the last plane to land. We had to be towed in on account of the snow. Although we had no checked luggage, we were still delayed because the crowds of people who were displaced because of the storm. Since neither my brother nor my mother would come to pick us up, my Dad and I had to take a bus to the train so we could get to Penn Station to take a subway to transfer to the shuttle to get to grand central so we could take the train home. Reached my door about 4 hours after we landed. Over 30 hours after leaving Venice. Traveling is fun.
The trip itself was enjoyable. Not in the mood to talk about it much. I'm tired, and starting to feel mopey again. I posted a bunch of pictures in facebook, so check that out. I've got to get back into the swing of things, do some work. This weekend I just relaxed, and then drank beer and crashed on hanna's couch, and then did nothing on sunday.
.........................................
Free Mastrogiacomo (http://www.repubblica.it/speciale/2007/appelli/mastrogiacomo/english.html) OK, I waited too long to post that link, as he has been freed, but still, that's great news! I read La Repubblica almost everyday, at least when I was in Rome and Venice, and this story was all over the papers and on tv. Here's a short but on his being freed today. http://euronews.net/index.php?page=info&article=412318&lng=1
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
Because this blog has become so sporadic, in keeping with my declining mental health (not really, just stressed and hating winter) here's a random part of a poem I love
"Requiem for a Friend" - Rainer Maria Rilke
...
For this is guilt, if it is anything:
to fail to increase the freedom of a love
by all the freedom we can raise within ourselves.
When we love, we have, at most, this:
to let each other go; for holding on
comes easily, we don't have to learn it.
...
"Requiem für eine Freundin" - Rainer Maria Rilke
[...
Denn das ist Schuld, wennirgendeines Schuld ist:
die Freiheit eines Lieben nicht vermehren
um alle Freiheit, die man in sich aufbringt.
Wir haben, wo wir lieben, ja nur dies:
einander lassen, denn daß wir uns halten,
das fällt uns leicht und ist nicht erst zu lernen.
...]
truer and truer.
*******************
And finally, Staying Busy to distract myself, as well as remind myself how to be myself, I have been going out alot and keeping busy these last 2 weeks since returning from Italia. I can barely remember the blur of the last two weeks, so I will try to recount it for my own future reference. Last week, after the trip to Spice Markey and the EITS show, which I think I wrote about, I saw Battles play at Purchase on wednesday, which was a blast. Luckily I have access to all this great music from working for TSB, so I have the new record already. THursday after work Hanna and I went to Patrycja's apt in Port Chester and drank mojitos and hung out, until about 9 or so when I went and hung out with Sam and Rachel for a while. A good night of not doing much. Friday after work was spent smoking with Hanna and then going to see a play at Purchase. Needless to say, I was deep in thought, and came to some stunning realizations, but ultimately was not impressed by the play. Perhaps it was my altered state of conciousness, but it seemed too real, needlessly real, to the point where the audience is simply looking at a reflection of their own lives, with nothing new being revelaved. May be more interesting to outsiders/ future viwers who have more distance from suburban american anxiety. Saturday I hung out with Drew and Sam and Rachel at Lee's restaurant, whcih was sort of fun. Sunday I can't remember... I think I just played music and hung out at home. I've been doing more ambient/electronic/dance music. I think DJing would be fun. At the same time I've been playing more acoustic guitar, and writing simple folk songs. Maybe I can combine the two? Monday night we went into Brooklyn, and I'm probably better off not recounting that evening. Lets just say Hanna is a mess, my face hit the grill of a cab, guys who work in delis are funny, and sometimes its freeing to defy the mechanisms of power and not get caught. It demonstrates that the surveillance and attempts at social control, disguised as self-discipline, aren't absolute. No that being stupid should be confused with a revolutionary action, but still, it was refreshing to see something so against the social order not be challenged. It really made me feel like there's more space for resistance than I'd feared. We just need to find a better way to exercise in that space then drinking wine.... anyway, so thatnight was fun, but it was late, and meant that I didn't get home until about 330, and I had class at 830. Long day. Tuesday night was spent mostly on campus enjoying the fabulous weather and climbing on the Henry Moore statue with Hanna. The school felt so alive that day, and I was in a good mood, enlivened by seeing the collective community emerging from the winter's hibernation. Purchase really relies on its students to animate it, and thus is at its best in the spring. Wednesday Lee and I went down to the city to check out another Jean-Georges restaurant, the Mercer Kitchen. We then did some shopping on broadway, (I got a sweet pair of jeans from Uni Qlo) and then we went to see Do Make Say Think at South Paw in Brooklyn. ANd drank more wine. Thursday night was the Venetian Ball, which was kinda lame, but I met some folks and played foosball all night. And here we are, friday... contemplating going down to Philly on a whim. Let's see what happens from here, as I'm feeling pretty good.
I'm trying to figure out what to do this fall, but no matter what this summer will be a blast. I'm waiting to hear about Fulbright, I started to apply for the Peace Corps, and I'm beginning to look into jobs overseas. I may get certified to teach before hand, but I'm not sure. Peace Corps seems like an excellent option. I have some other things on the table, but I need to think for a while about them before sharing.
On Wednesday I'll be leaving for San Francisco, and I'm very excited. Some philosophical waxing to come before then....
Sooooo........ I flew into Newark on Friday night,(3/16) the last plane to land. We had to be towed in on account of the snow. Although we had no checked luggage, we were still delayed because the crowds of people who were displaced because of the storm. Since neither my brother nor my mother would come to pick us up, my Dad and I had to take a bus to the train so we could get to Penn Station to take a subway to transfer to the shuttle to get to grand central so we could take the train home. Reached my door about 4 hours after we landed. Over 30 hours after leaving Venice. Traveling is fun.
The trip itself was enjoyable. Not in the mood to talk about it much. I'm tired, and starting to feel mopey again. I posted a bunch of pictures in facebook, so check that out. I've got to get back into the swing of things, do some work. This weekend I just relaxed, and then drank beer and crashed on hanna's couch, and then did nothing on sunday.
.........................................
Free Mastrogiacomo (http://www.repubblica.it/speciale/2007/appelli/mastrogiacomo/english.html) OK, I waited too long to post that link, as he has been freed, but still, that's great news! I read La Repubblica almost everyday, at least when I was in Rome and Venice, and this story was all over the papers and on tv. Here's a short but on his being freed today. http://euronews.net/index.php?page=info&article=412318&lng=1
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
Because this blog has become so sporadic, in keeping with my declining mental health (not really, just stressed and hating winter) here's a random part of a poem I love
"Requiem for a Friend" - Rainer Maria Rilke
...
For this is guilt, if it is anything:
to fail to increase the freedom of a love
by all the freedom we can raise within ourselves.
When we love, we have, at most, this:
to let each other go; for holding on
comes easily, we don't have to learn it.
...
"Requiem für eine Freundin" - Rainer Maria Rilke
[...
Denn das ist Schuld, wennirgendeines Schuld ist:
die Freiheit eines Lieben nicht vermehren
um alle Freiheit, die man in sich aufbringt.
Wir haben, wo wir lieben, ja nur dies:
einander lassen, denn daß wir uns halten,
das fällt uns leicht und ist nicht erst zu lernen.
...]
truer and truer.
*******************
And finally, Staying Busy to distract myself, as well as remind myself how to be myself, I have been going out alot and keeping busy these last 2 weeks since returning from Italia. I can barely remember the blur of the last two weeks, so I will try to recount it for my own future reference. Last week, after the trip to Spice Markey and the EITS show, which I think I wrote about, I saw Battles play at Purchase on wednesday, which was a blast. Luckily I have access to all this great music from working for TSB, so I have the new record already. THursday after work Hanna and I went to Patrycja's apt in Port Chester and drank mojitos and hung out, until about 9 or so when I went and hung out with Sam and Rachel for a while. A good night of not doing much. Friday after work was spent smoking with Hanna and then going to see a play at Purchase. Needless to say, I was deep in thought, and came to some stunning realizations, but ultimately was not impressed by the play. Perhaps it was my altered state of conciousness, but it seemed too real, needlessly real, to the point where the audience is simply looking at a reflection of their own lives, with nothing new being revelaved. May be more interesting to outsiders/ future viwers who have more distance from suburban american anxiety. Saturday I hung out with Drew and Sam and Rachel at Lee's restaurant, whcih was sort of fun. Sunday I can't remember... I think I just played music and hung out at home. I've been doing more ambient/electronic/dance music. I think DJing would be fun. At the same time I've been playing more acoustic guitar, and writing simple folk songs. Maybe I can combine the two? Monday night we went into Brooklyn, and I'm probably better off not recounting that evening. Lets just say Hanna is a mess, my face hit the grill of a cab, guys who work in delis are funny, and sometimes its freeing to defy the mechanisms of power and not get caught. It demonstrates that the surveillance and attempts at social control, disguised as self-discipline, aren't absolute. No that being stupid should be confused with a revolutionary action, but still, it was refreshing to see something so against the social order not be challenged. It really made me feel like there's more space for resistance than I'd feared. We just need to find a better way to exercise in that space then drinking wine.... anyway, so thatnight was fun, but it was late, and meant that I didn't get home until about 330, and I had class at 830. Long day. Tuesday night was spent mostly on campus enjoying the fabulous weather and climbing on the Henry Moore statue with Hanna. The school felt so alive that day, and I was in a good mood, enlivened by seeing the collective community emerging from the winter's hibernation. Purchase really relies on its students to animate it, and thus is at its best in the spring. Wednesday Lee and I went down to the city to check out another Jean-Georges restaurant, the Mercer Kitchen. We then did some shopping on broadway, (I got a sweet pair of jeans from Uni Qlo) and then we went to see Do Make Say Think at South Paw in Brooklyn. ANd drank more wine. Thursday night was the Venetian Ball, which was kinda lame, but I met some folks and played foosball all night. And here we are, friday... contemplating going down to Philly on a whim. Let's see what happens from here, as I'm feeling pretty good.
I'm trying to figure out what to do this fall, but no matter what this summer will be a blast. I'm waiting to hear about Fulbright, I started to apply for the Peace Corps, and I'm beginning to look into jobs overseas. I may get certified to teach before hand, but I'm not sure. Peace Corps seems like an excellent option. I have some other things on the table, but I need to think for a while about them before sharing.
On Wednesday I'll be leaving for San Francisco, and I'm very excited. Some philosophical waxing to come before then....
posted by tno at 22:39
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