i lovve paris in the summer (when it rains all the time....)

i dont remember that part of the song. anyway, once again, i hav limited time on the computer, timer and all, and anohter strange, difficult keyboard. im sure most ofu heard about the planned terrorists attacks. well apparently they wre scheduled to happen the day i am flying home (to ny) from heathrow. they say they got the guys, but severe restrictions have been placed on luggage. heathrow is more of a zoo than usual. i leave paris today for bruxelles, and fly home from london on weds, altho theres a chance with all this bs ill get delayed/stranded. welll see.

siena was really awesome. i likebeing in once place for a while, especially a beautiful place. lexy and i spent a day in the strattons apartment in the city, so we had anight off thefarm. we went to firenze on thursday, and saw anamazing harvest moon. at 550am lexy left for roma to flyto ny and apparently got home allright. i came to paris, but couldnt get a fast overnight train so ileft AFTER lex, tranfered ingenova and then nice. arrived in paris at 11pm, and it was cold cold cold, and my hostel refused to take my reservation cos the owner listed them as dorms when they didntexist. lonng story ill write later. anyway, paris has beengreat. ill hav to come bck and spendmore timehere,preferably when its not rining.

ok, well lets hopeall this nonsense with terror dies down andi get home ok. i keep thinking why did i do this or that, fly home then, go withlexxy, reerve the train toparis inadvanxxe, etc. and i keep reminding myself that if one thing changes, everythgin would hve to change. everything reallyis interconnnected. thatis, for me to hve made a different decision, something wouldhave had to be differentt to cause my deliberations/chemical rections to end up different. and likewise something elsewouldhaveto havebeen different to cause that thing tobe different aa weell. point is, there are no mistakes. it is what itis. we are veryoriented towardslookingat the future, cos its a source of unceertainty forus,t hus we tryto havvvecontrlby pretendeing we have more control than we really do. anyway, somethings are meant to happen. everything in fact, that does haappen.

update from burxelles later today (my today not urs... or ig uess ur tomorrow...butno oonne willreadythis now anyway....ok